I hate reminiscing on the past.... I hate talking to some people and realizing what could have been. I hate the things I didn't do, and the things I did do. And yet in the end it all comes together somehow. I keep oscillating from extremely happy to extremely sad, never stopping in the middle. It's been happening my entire life... except for one specific 5 months... when I was with my ex. I hate saying her name, so I say ex instead. If I knew all the pain that would come out of it before it happened, I wouldn't change a thing. I dunno, sometimes I feel materialistic for wanting to have someone by me, but I think its because most people don't understand why I want that. Definitely not for sex (still a virgin, very proud of that, and plan to stay that way till I'm married), definitely not the physical attraction.. so what is it? Tell me when you figure it out, till then, I'll keep hoping.


---she's got a way about her, I don't know what it is, but I know that I can't live without her---




yes, I spell check.


now the other side...

You have to stay in shape. My grandmother, she started walking five miles a day when she was 60. She's 97 today and we don't know where the hell she is. - Ellen Degeneres

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