Every time I hear a truck backing up, I get this weird feeling inside me. It happens before I see the truck, when I can only hear the sound of the beep beeep beeep. To me it sounds like an alarm clock, and at that moment I feel like I am in a dream trying to wake up. Reality is just a more vivid dream, and right about now, I want to wake up. I went over the edge yesterday, I can't even remember what I did, but I know it was stupid. I guess it affected me so much because I wanted it so much, and tried for so long. But that's life... what a dream it is.