Tuesday, April 20, 2004

I went to get doughnuts this morning and dropped a quarter on the way out. I knew I dropped it, but I felt it would be a waste to stop everything for 25 cents. Well, it seems the guy behind me felt otherwise. He ran all the way to my car to give me back the quarter I dropped. Very strange, but it did put a smile on my face knowing there are still caring (odd, but caring) people in this world.

I had philosophy class tonight, very cool class. Then after class on the drive back home, I started thinking about random things. Below are my thoughts in a more structured and compressed format:

Confidence vs Cockiness
There is a fine line between confidence and cockiness, although they are on opposite sides of the pendulum. The main difference is simple: action vs words. Confident people show their confidence through their actions. They make decisions and don't look back. They don't question themselves unnecessarily. They make others around them feel confident and happy without having to say a word. Cocky people, however, are the exact opposite. They tell everyone what a wonderful and great person they are. They take credit for everything that goes well and blame others when things go wrong. They make others feel inferior and stupid. Why? Because they are insecure. They need to reassure themselves that they are wonderful people.

I have met many cocky people in my life. Some are very intelligent people who truly are outstanding individuals, but the fact that they boast about it so much ruins their entire image. Quite honestly, I don't know a single confident person in my life. There are people who are confident to some degree, but someone who is truly confident in all aspects? I have yet to meet them.

Confidence is a very big turn on for me, although when it comes to the opposite sex, I always confuse cockiness with confidence. That is probably why no relationship has worked for me, mostly by the relationship not even starting. Some men need a girl who is clingy and insecure so that they can exert power over her to feel confident. I don't need that fake confidence. I want someone who is so confident that it radiates. I want to feel the energy of that confidence, and I want us to develop together as loving, confident people. I'm done.


Thriving Under Pressure
It seems over the last month I have become even more of a masochist. I've realized that I love situations dealing with touchy topics with uncomfortable circumstances, and where a decision with long-lasting impact needs to be made on short notice. I absolutely love it and I end up putting myself in the center of these situations a lot more than usual. It's oddly interesting...



Everyone knows that people always want what they can't have. Why? Because, by definition, you can't want something you already have. There! Crisis averted!


Thank you Gagik for sending me the above picture.

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