Ok apparently people are not happy with the cryptic entries. TOO BAD! Things are just very messy right now. Today my brother in law went to the hospital because water started building up in his arm. Weird. It's April, and it is the most hectic month so far. Corporate taxes and personal issues and family stuff and what not. Had a full day at work today, then went to Yeva's and did her tax return.
And now here I am, sitting in front of my computer at midnight trying to figure everything out and can't do much because there is a damn lingering issue that refuses to be clarified. Maybe I do expect too much, but I always give back more than what I expect. Maybe the Arthur before was ok with just "letting things be" but not anymore. That's not how life works, and if you have to sit back and let things play out on their own, well that's just being a spectator. I prefer being on the front lines. Maybe that difference in itself is enough to make things not work, but I need to know that. Listen to Cranberries - Linger and pay attention to the line that says DO YOU HAVE TO LET IT LINGER? Damnit I HATE outstanding issues, almost as much as I hate it when people say "Arthur I have to tell you something" and then naturally I ask what it is, and they say "I'll tell you later." WTF? WHY DID YOU BRING IT UP IF YOU AREN'T GOING TO SAY IT?
Ok while I'm at it, I am going to bitch at everyone. If you read something and say hey I said that or hey I did that, then it's about you! Find your sentence! Ok what is with 19 year old KIDS (I am a kid as well) that decide they know the meaning of life and go around preaching what is the right thing to do. You SWEAR in the 2 years (if even that) you have been thinking on your own that you have figured everything out. The older you get, the more you realize you don't know shit. Next issue, people that still consider me a friend even though they never talk to me, unless of course there's a blue moon out and its 72 degrees in Norway. News flash, I am not one of your bestest buddies if you talk to me less often than I do my quarterly estimated tax payments. There are only 3 people I consider my closest friends, and don't ask me who they are because I got better things to do. Who else who else... I dunno, I'm done.
The closer I get to some people, the more I feel alone. Some risks are worth taking.
And now here I am, sitting in front of my computer at midnight trying to figure everything out and can't do much because there is a damn lingering issue that refuses to be clarified. Maybe I do expect too much, but I always give back more than what I expect. Maybe the Arthur before was ok with just "letting things be" but not anymore. That's not how life works, and if you have to sit back and let things play out on their own, well that's just being a spectator. I prefer being on the front lines. Maybe that difference in itself is enough to make things not work, but I need to know that. Listen to Cranberries - Linger and pay attention to the line that says DO YOU HAVE TO LET IT LINGER? Damnit I HATE outstanding issues, almost as much as I hate it when people say "Arthur I have to tell you something" and then naturally I ask what it is, and they say "I'll tell you later." WTF? WHY DID YOU BRING IT UP IF YOU AREN'T GOING TO SAY IT?
Ok while I'm at it, I am going to bitch at everyone. If you read something and say hey I said that or hey I did that, then it's about you! Find your sentence! Ok what is with 19 year old KIDS (I am a kid as well) that decide they know the meaning of life and go around preaching what is the right thing to do. You SWEAR in the 2 years (if even that) you have been thinking on your own that you have figured everything out. The older you get, the more you realize you don't know shit. Next issue, people that still consider me a friend even though they never talk to me, unless of course there's a blue moon out and its 72 degrees in Norway. News flash, I am not one of your bestest buddies if you talk to me less often than I do my quarterly estimated tax payments. There are only 3 people I consider my closest friends, and don't ask me who they are because I got better things to do. Who else who else... I dunno, I'm done.
The closer I get to some people, the more I feel alone. Some risks are worth taking.
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