Wow... I just finished reading "The Da Vinci Code" by Dan Brown. Truly a remarkable book of pure genius. If you ever get a chance to read it, do it! You will especially like it if your a woman since it says a lot about how woman, who were so sacred before, have now become the lesser gender because of constant pressure to make it that way. The way the story unravels, the countless twists, the real-life facts, EVERYTHING. Wow....

Yesterday was rather interesting. Ara had a get together so we all went, nice collection of friends there. I felt so out of place. People drinking and smoking, and I'm thinking, "I don't belong in this environment." I'm not a party person, I'm not a public drinker or smoker, and I certainly don't do it to be cool *cough* *cough*. I've realized that I've always been more comfortable one to one. Go out with one person and I feel great. That's how it was with Tara, Yeva, Mary, Anahid, Narine, etc... I hate it when I'm in a group. Je d?teste des groupes!!

My back continues to kill me, I can't even walk straight anymore. Hurts 24 hours, but mostly when I am standing a lot or walking. I've been to my chiropractor 8 times, nada. Been to 2 doctors, nada. X-rays show nothing. Now I need to find another doc that will send me in for an MRI so that maybe we can see what's actually wrong! Cortizone shot is most likely what is going to fix me up, but I'm not exactly delighted at the thought of a needle going into my spine. Oh well...

Business is great, but very very stressful. School is runing it too. I have to study for my calculus test that's on tuesday. I need to get an A on that. I need to write my French composition, I need to finish my notebook for French. I need to read all of "Heart of Darkness" for english, I need to write the rough draft of my research paper for english. I just need to survive the next 17 days, 8 hours, 51 minutes, and 44 seconds and school will go bye bye.

As far as business, there is a lot of stuff to do. Now I'm also handling all financial and management tasks for TGP. In one month I'm going to try to turn this very unorganized business into a well-oiled machine, with compensation of course :-) As far as Blue Media, we are making great progess on our newest venture. Got a big big meeting on Thursday, so we'll see how it goes. Ohh and the administrative assistant starts her job on Wednesday so that should take the load off of everyoen for answering phones and handling the a/r & a/p. Not my personal tasks but its much better knowing someone is here to completely handle all that.

Picanha with Anahid today!!! Can't WAIT!! Oh man I love that, and its gonna be awesome cuz its with such a cool friend. Yesterday I was feeling down because I was extremely sensitive from all the stress of work, and Anahid made me a little book called "10 Reasons Why Arthur Shouldn't Feel Blue." Now that certainly put the biggest smile on my face. What a cool friend, although she is still doing horribly on her task of fnding me a wife! j/k j/k. Ok enough chatting, I wrote a damn essay in this enty! Remember, the war is won before it is begun - Sun Tzu

the emptiness grows

Its Thanksgiving so... thanks. Nice family gathering, finally got to see my cousins again. Why do we eat turkey? It's so not the best thing to eat to celebrate. If I had it my way, it would be steak. Yup, medium-well done Picanha Steak... YUMMM. On that note, Anahid and I are gonna go there tomorrow! EEEEK!!!

Yesterday, we went to Shant's house to chill because Ara is back in town. Played some poker, they drank a bit (I hate drinking) and that's about it. Purty good day. How much I respected 2 people did drop a little, but I am a hypocrite... I'll be the first one to admit to that. I hold others to a MUCH MUUUCH higher standard than I hold myself. Shrug... heh kinda funny that the other day when I was talking to Mary at night, she said exactly the same thing, that she holds others to a higher standard than herself.


By the way, I was searching google for hypocrite and it came up with Was Jesus a Hypocrite?

Sort of interesting. I want to post all my essays on religion on a site, then link them here. Very controversial, which makes them so fun! Ohh another interesting link, searching google for 'livejournal' came up with this livejournal of... god. Now there's a strange read.

Well, last night I wrote the french quiz study sheet, and I woke up at 6am to study it for about an hour and a half. It sure paid off! 100% baby! Then I skipped Calculus and ate breakfast with Anahid at IHOP cuz I had a meeting to go to. Wow what a meeting. Three people who were at least twice my age, scared and nervous, trying to prove to me and my partners that they are good enough. And then after Charles asked them to leave, he said a very memorable line... "they are just pawns." Yes my friends, 20 years of going to school to get a degree in Marketing or Computer Science has finally allowed these fine men and women to be given the title PAWNS! Sad, but it is true.

Well business seems to be going really well. Let's hope this thing takes off like a dog who just sat on the stove. Ok, I think I'm done for the day. Time to close the office, ######, then head on home to watch Bravo at 8pm - VAREKAI (nothing beats being there though, wow I still get all excited when I remember how cool the show was when I went).

My goal is still to make my first million by 21. I think I'm more on track now than ever before. Either I'll make it or lose horribly. Either way, the experience has been worth everthing. Au revoir!

one lesson i learned: BEWARE OF WOMEN WITH SCISSORS

"i want to keep the top somewhat long, so just trim it and fade the sides"
"ok" (say it with an armenian accent [yes i jacked that from silva])

NOW IM ALMOST FUKIN BALD! ESH ESH ESHHHHHHH

Good old Michael Jackson
WHAT A FREAK!

Just wanted to post that picture, back to chatting with Mary and watching Alegria :-D

Wow I accidently found an ooooold blog I had when Alex and I were still close... 2 years have passed since then...wow...
Here it is if you want to read the good ol' happy days: The Inner Mind

Well Math class was cancelled today, how amazingly great did that feel? Best feeling ever to see that pink slip on the door. Anyways, Shant Edrik Emin Talin and I went to eat after, what's that pizza place at the marketplace called? yeah, thats where we ate. Then I dropped them off, studied a bit, and took my sociology test that I was supposed to take on Thursday. Hi! My name is Mr. Lagger!

I got a chance to talk to someone I hadn't talked to for a while. Honestly I was surprised that ##### IMed me. We had a great talk, like we used to. What a great person. Now I'm at the office just chillin like a... COW! (you thought I was gonna say villian didn't you? Typical!). Let's see... I #### again today. Whatever, that's life. Sure beats what others do for a way to stay sane. I got a French test tomorrow, which means no sleep this night. Oh well... School is over in.....22 days, 7 hours, 7 minutes, and 36 seconds. Not too shabby eh? Ok back to work, gotta think of what to get for everyone for christmas without maxing out my credit cards :-D



Quote of the moment:
falleN serApH5: a shoe? i have two!
Strawberry PJ: who you? You have two?
Strawberry PJ: are they new?
falleN serApH5: you cant use the same words i did, you jew!

the lights in the hallway slowly go out
and im left alone
cold and alone
in the deafening silence
im wet
im shivering
im waiting for something
for someone
too far away
its gets colder
its get quieter
then its just me
and the thousand voices in my head

Finally saw Anahid after 10 days, janaa. Hmm... music is so beautiful. There are so many ways to express yourself, and music does such a wonderful job. Listen to

Radiohead - Idioteque
Cirque du Soleil - Irna

How different they are and yet how very alike.

I hate school. It is such a low priority now. By January I'll know how much I'm going to slow it down.

"I watched a snail crawl along the edge of a straight razor. That's my dream. That's my nightmare. Crawling, slithering, along the edge of a straight... razor... and surviving"

Sometimes I do feel that way, and it's not because life is hard or anything, I think its because I am severely fucked in the head. You know how sometimes you have headaches, but not all the time? Well sometimes I go insane. Fair enough?

edgy edgy edgy.. why do I get so edgy sometimes? AHHHH


and im shivering and im hurt and im annoyed and im overwhelmed and im confused
yet nothing is wrong

there is love in me raging
and now i'm bleeding


good night

Ok I somewhat regret making this shit public. A LOT I would love to say but I can't, because of the large group of people who could read it, ranging from family to complete strangers. Sigh.... I'll keep it inside most of the time, and leave posts that don't make sense, but that's me, right?


fuck you for destroying me
fuck you for putting me in a cage
fuck you for giving me insecurity
in a nicely wrapped box
you tore me apart
you rip me to shreds

small fires die out,
large ones just get bigger,
thank you for showing me which one i am
thank you for injecting into my soul the pain
that i turned into anger
that turned into fuel
the fuel I needed
to...

forget it.

Words don't mean shit.
just watch.
I've done 3 to 6,
and I guarantee you I'll get 8.

but in the end
its not about money



its about....


proving


you


wrong




only one person in the world might be able to understand these:
the seeking is better than the sought
the moon rises on our fears
the sun sets on our hopes
life... is subject to change without notice
everything's possible if you lose your mind to it
take comfort in the chaos
wander wonderfully
with a little luck... you won't find what you're looking for
hope springs eternal
crisis... is a rite of passage
silence is golden
do not accept this reality
never share secrets with yourself
may all your wishes come true
...the journey never ends...

I hate reminiscing on the past.... I hate talking to some people and realizing what could have been. I hate the things I didn't do, and the things I did do. And yet in the end it all comes together somehow. I keep oscillating from extremely happy to extremely sad, never stopping in the middle. It's been happening my entire life... except for one specific 5 months... when I was with my ex. I hate saying her name, so I say ex instead. If I knew all the pain that would come out of it before it happened, I wouldn't change a thing. I dunno, sometimes I feel materialistic for wanting to have someone by me, but I think its because most people don't understand why I want that. Definitely not for sex (still a virgin, very proud of that, and plan to stay that way till I'm married), definitely not the physical attraction.. so what is it? Tell me when you figure it out, till then, I'll keep hoping.


---she's got a way about her, I don't know what it is, but I know that I can't live without her---




yes, I spell check.


now the other side...

You have to stay in shape. My grandmother, she started walking five miles a day when she was 60. She's 97 today and we don't know where the hell she is. - Ellen Degeneres

I love these

OK I have decided to make my blog public... so umm you might see some censoring regarding previous posts ;-)

ok I'm in the mood to post again. So much for doing a daily log huh? Well today Chris and I got the new i730 cell phones (sexxxxy), changed mine to DC only so that the new receptionist can DC us and the drivers for dispatch, and ummm we're waiting for Chris to get his replacement phone so that we can "flip-flop" (yes thats the phrase the Nextel guy used) the replacement with the i730 for Charles.

There was 50% of my day. The other 50%, I went to Picanha with my parents. I hadn't been there since I went with Yeva about a few billion years ago. Oh man it was soooooo good!!!!! Picanha steak is the greatest thing. I believe that is the purpose of the cow. And the purpose of human life is to eat that. OK no, I don't really support cow slaughtering, but I can say whatever I want!!! THIS IS MYYYY BLOG MUAHAHHAHA. Long story short, the day ended :)

Thought for the day: LIFE. I had never noticed that was in the middle....

BACK FROM VEGAS! Oh woww what a trip! Somewhere in between the $2,500/night rooms, the $250/person massages, and the endless fun... I discovered more of myself. The not shaving thing didn't work too well, although I wasn't hassled THAT much. Next time I'll get an ID ;-) Oh yeah, I forgot to mention how COMDEX went (minor detail, considering that's why we went to Las Vegas in the first place). Ok well, very crowded, and not as good as I had expected it. There were a lot of security related items and a lot of hardware, but most of the software packages I was looking forward to (like NetSuite). Oh well, a grrrreat time! Ok I'm tired so ummm BYE! :-D :-D

Haven't had much time to post but I just had had had had too! Oh wow what a beautiful day. Quick summary: I went to VAREKAI VIP Style with Mary in a brand new Hummer. Ok so I take the big thing and drive it around. It has half a tank and I know Hummer's chug gas like water, so I fill it up with 92 gas. $30 for half a tank! Edrik wanted to see the Hummer too, so i waited at the gas station till he came. Of course he loved it.

Ok now off to Mary's house. After she finally got home, I went in too. It was her and her boyfriend, and he was very careful of me. Heck I would too if someone as special as Mary was my gf and she was going to a show with another guy I'd never met. So anyways they do some kisses and Mary and I are off to the show. We talked the way I talk with Anahid, and I haven't seen or heard from this girl for 3 years!! Amazing amazing! Yeah and I had a CD with all of the songs she told me about, that became a special part of me. Great times.

We got there, VIP style, going into the tapis rouge VIP lounge where we got free stuff to eat and some nice drinks. Show starts, amazing! Best show I have ever seen. It is sooo active and alive and a new world, and being with Mary was amazing, her and I joked around the whole time, and had clapping contests.

After the show, we wanted to go eat sushi, but no place was open! She kept inviting me to her friend's party, but you know how I am with parties, especially with people I don't know at all! So anyways I drop her off and head on over to the office to switch cars. I get home at midnight (hungry!) and here I am typing. GREAT DAY!

Ok... WOW. I can't believe I just paid ##### for 2 tickets to VAREKAI next Saturday. Ok ok... that was a bit irrational but umm its cool damnit! I'm going to go with Mary, whom I haven't seen once for... 3 years. Too crazy huh? It's ok... my ########## will #######3 on its own, watch. As I always say, #### #### like you have it! Ok ok well so far we have 12 interviews set up for Wednesday. It is going to be one CRAZY day. I called someone for an interview today, this one is for the MenuDish sales position. He is like 55 years old and has done a lot of sales with restaurants, so let's see how it goes. I LOVE MY JOB!

Oh I got a B on my French quiz... which brings me to my USC Transfer Workshop. Foreign language is not a requirement! I can't believe it! Couldn't someone have told me that before? Well I can still get to USC in Fall, but I have decided to apply for the Fall 2005 session so that I can concentrate more on my work. One year isn't going to kill me, but if I miss one year of work, I might lose the chance of a lifetime. Let's see how life plays out huh?

What else what else.... OHHH it's my birthday tomorrow!! woohoo, 19 at last! Not a very special year, but one year closer to 21! On that note, Vegas in 9 days... now there, I am 21 :-D

That's it for now. I have to write an essay comparing and contrasting the Jewish religion to the Muslim religion. I actually picked that topic, and it can be very exciting ok??????

MUAH!

Au revoir!

Ok wow well I haven't posted for a while because I forgot the password to the blog! Anyways, not much different. Still going after MenuDish thang, we put an ad on monster.com for a receptionist and one for a sales rep for menudish. Wow we got so many responses, and it has been only one day! The $335/per listing is worth every penny. And now it is time for a shower, you wanna join?